The Wolf Within

"Some days I am more wolf than woman, and I am still learning how to stop apologizing for my wild."

-Nikita Gill

This quote is something I strongly resonate with. It was one of those moments that when I saw the quote I went,  "YES. That is exactly what I've been working on." Also, Nikita Gill has some beautiful work on her poetry which you can check out here. 

For the past year, I've purposefully been asking for what I need—in all aspects of life— something that is both challenging yet beautifully rewarding. And for the past couple of weeks, wolves have been popping up like wildfire in a number of ways in my life, from pieces of art given to me to tattoos and songs to murals around Austin. My parents even re-branded their business with the word wolf in it. Multiple friends have sent me videos on the interesting lives of wolves. 

I don't think these were put in place for me for a purpose, but I think I'm waking up to my consciousness, which has allowed me to hone in on these signs. 

After doing some research, I discovered the following information regarding wolf symbolism, biological facts and more. 

From a Nat Geo special on wolves. If you want to check out the whole thing , click here

Wolves are sensitive and perceptive. They will alter their behavior for those around them if they feel it's needed. They are the most misunderstood animal in North America. A wolf pack is a complicated social structure that values strong connections and education for both its old and young. Knowledge is passed down amongst all wolves in a pack. They are a keystone species, meaning they help bring life and breath to other species around them...They are a species that heavily require social bonds and extended periods of traveling solo. 

Wolves are often misunderstood in folklore and history. Tales like “Little Red Riding Hood” have been passed down from European generations, and American parents continue to pass down these fairy tales. To this day, we are unconsciously programmed to fear the wolf, and many people still believe they post a threat to human life. But generally, they are afraid of people and try to avoid them. 

In the shamanic, totem and spirit animal words, I uncovered some common connections with the wolf, as they have been symbolic guides of our unconscious minds in journeys of self-discovery.

The wolf is a strong communicator and leader.

By nature, wolves tend to travel in packs and support their group, and they rely heavily on sharing information and knowledge with their pack. They are constantly learning different ways to help their elders and teach their young to follow in the right path. The Wolf represents the pathfinder: he is a guide that helps you discover when you are being misled or steer you correctly toward your instincts.

 The wolf has a deep understanding of self.  

The wolf needs periods of solitude in order to not be deterred by the beliefs, judgments and actions of others. They travel deep into the woods and the unknown to face their fears and remember what sustains them the most in life. These periods of solitude can be immensely challenging, but ultimately necessary as the wolf comes back with a deeper understanding of the ability to share knowledge.

The wolf relies heavily on its instincts. 

When wolves appear as spirit guides, they could be an invitation to look at what supports your authentic self and the true expression of self. In Native American culture, the wolf totem is a reminder to keep your spirit alive through the ebbs and flows of life because wolves will easily feel betrayed if they are not loyal to themselves. 

While I think a lot of people could connect to the symbol of the wolf, I think the strongest takeaway from these occurrences in my life is remembering that the world gives us signs and symbols when we ask for them. Perhaps right now the wolf is a reminder that instincts are real—after all, we are animals. Instincts are powerful, and as a society, we don't often trust these very real and biological forces of nature. 

With this symbolism, I'm reminded of the importance of facing fears head on, knowing that they will help me stay rooted in my most true of true beliefs and that part of my purpose is sharing knowledge with those around me.

I hope that ultimately if you connected with any of these points on wolf symbolism that you remember not to apologize for your wild, as Nikita Gill says so eloquently in her poetry. You may feel that some of your thoughts, actions or beliefs feel right but don't make sense. That’s OK. Listen to that feeling in your gut. Your wildness, in whatever way it presents itself, is beautiful, raw and bold. 

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